I often get asked how I like being a stay at home mom. I'm never really sure how to answer it. I like it, I guess. I really don't have a choice but to like it, do I? :) It has its ups and downs like any other job. Victory often seems concerned about making sure that I feel appreciated being at home which honestly, isn't a problem. A baby can't say thank you for changing that yucky diaper, or feeding her despite her blowing raspberries as you place the spoonful of food into her mouth. But every giggle, cuddle and and smile is thank you enough!...as long as they aren't too far in between too many cries and mischief. :)
WHAT I LIKE
I like that I don't always feel frenzied and tired. It was exhausting every morning to try to remember EVERYTHING and get out of the door by a certain time. If I wrote out the to-do list for the mornings and the don't forget list, I would only bore you but it was just TOO much. I laugh at myself when I think back a couple of years ago when it was just me and I could barely get myself to work by 8:00. Oh, how pathetic!!!
My mind is much more relaxed. My mind was ALWAYS on hyper mode. It was always thinking about what I needed to do next. I was trying figure out the details of home AND work. I would try listening to other people but in the mean time my mind was often searching, thinking of "what next?" AHHH. I had almost forgotten about that feeling until just now. I seriously felt that if someone had spent just ten minutes in my head they would have gone crazy.
My heart feels more at peace. That could be the direct effect of the mind being calmed down. I feel like I can enjoy and love the time I have with my little girl and husband.
My body is feeling GREAT! I hadn't regularly exercised since I started dating Victory back in the summer of 2007 where I willing gave up any free time I had. :) Now, I've been exercising and/or walking 5-6 days a week. Feels awesome! My goal is to get rid of the baby belly...does that ever go away or am I trying in vain?
(ha ha! Laugh if you will, but I love exercising with Richard)
SOME OF THE DOWNS
My house is most definitely NOT cleaner. I thought it would be but who am I joking with a little girl out and about taking EVERYTHING off the shelves, out of the drawers and spreading toys, books, dvds, and anything she can get her hands on all through out the house. So when I decide to clean it is cleaning up those messes instead of other cleaning and organizing. Oh well. I'm not too worried unless I get an unexpected visitor. Then I might FREAK out. :)
It can get a little lonely. It really hasn't been too bad so far. I attribute that to a friend who lets her son come over and play with Bekah for a couple of hours on Monday and Tuesday while she is in class. And then she goes walking with me on Thursdays and then we go to the Children's Museum on Fridays. It is SO helpful to get out once a day otherwise Bekah and I go a little crazy. She needs new things to explore and I need to feel like I have something to do each day.
THINGS THAT I LOVE
I love that I get to watch Bekah grow up. She is SO much fun right now...well, oft times a pill but so fun! She says "uh-oh". It is so cute! Another milestone, she took her first steps August 29th and has been working on improving it since. It is so cute to see her waddle around. She sometimes tries to go faster than her feet will take her and stumbles. I think she is attempting to run before she has mastered the walk. :) I love that I just get to be there. Sometimes I don't think it's fair that Victory has to be the one that is off making the living so that I can stay at home. :( Life isn't fair, is it.
I finally feel like there is time. There is time to breathe. Time to serve. Time to think. Time to plan. Time to sleep. Time to read. (yes read! I've already read two books! do you know how long it has been since I've read a book?!) Time to learn. Time to become a better person. And most importantly, time for relationships.
I have come to believe that Satan tries to make us too busy that there little time for anything but the essentials (if even that). I realize that at times that is how life is sometimes but hopefully only for a little while. And even though it was hard to quit my job, I'm glad I did. I was tired of being too busy.
I guess that is how I'd really answer the question "how do you like staying home?" instead of my short answer, "its good."