Should I be worrying??

Okay so here is an update. This is me and baby girl at 36 weeks:

I went to the Doctor today and she said

I'm 70% effaced and have dilated 1 cm.

Okay, 1 cm, that doesn't sound like a big deal, right? She then said that I was going to have this baby in a couple of weeks. WHAT???!!! FREAK OUT!! I'm not ready. You all said that I was going to my due date or even later! I'm soo not ready for this! She said she hopes I'll go at least one more week but she thinks I'll have it within two. However, after seeing my concerned look on my face, followed-up by saying, "I've been wrong before and I could be wrong again...but at least you'll be prepared."

I didn't sleep very well last night. I felt a since of panic. I'm trying to relax myself but good grief I'm getting really anxious. I'm afraid of walking too much or exerting myself to much in getting ready for our move next week. I just don't want to trigger anything. I'M NOT READY!!

THE DUE DATE...too far and yet entirely too soon

Can I tell you I have completely mixed feelings about my due date? I want her out and the very same time I think she can pretty much live there for a long time.

I WANT HER OUT!

1. I'm tired of waiting and facing the unknown.
2. I want to know what she looks like.
3. I want to adorn her in cute shoes, clothes and bows.
4. I want to hold her and make her laugh.
5. I'm tired of her kicking my ribs and creating back pain.
6. I want my body back!! I want to run, eat and play. Roller skating is definitely on my list of things to do once I'm able. I want to go shopping again for cute, clothes and pair of sexy jeans. (oh my!) And cute shoes...I miss my shoes! I know my feet don't look it to those who don't know my feet because they were so skinny and skeleton like before but they are swollen and I swear are a size 10 now!

SHE CAN BE A PERMANENT RESIDENT

1. I'm terrified of having a baby. LABOR!! YIKES!! I know there's the epidural but things can go wrong. Someone that works in mydepartment had their baby last week, 30 hours!!!! two failed epidurals and a spinal tap. And episiotomies, oye! And will I be able to get a hold of Victory? He's so stinking busy right now I'm afraid he'll be away at a football game and I'll be delivering her all alone.
2. We are completely unprepared for her! We aren't moving to our two bedroom apartment until September 29th. So we've put off buying anything for because we have no where to put it right now (except a few clothes...and a crib and bedding being stored at my parents house). I'm hoping to go buy a car seat soon so if she does comes early we can at least take her home.
3. What am I going to do with her once she's out? What am I going to do when she cries all night long? How do I get her on a eating/sleeping schedule?
4. Not sure how to make things work financially with me working possibly only part time or not at all and the increase in insurance? how do people make it these days?
5. I'm going to miss the movement of my little girl in my tummy. It's kinda fun to feel her there.

Well, you're guess is as good as mine as when she'll come out but I thought it would be fun to get your input. Her due date is October 19th and my maternity leave starts October 14th.... when do you think she'll come?

Also, we've been keeping her name to ourselves because we were afraid of negative feedback, however I'm not so sure about that name anymore. And just so we don't go to the hospital without any back ups do you have any name suggestions? Hope you come up with some good names...by the way Victory likes common but not popular names. :)

Can't wait for your feedback!!

Mr. Haines

Today is Victory's first day of teaching so I made him pose for a first day of school picture. He wasn't too thrilled about it especially knowing it was going to end up here. :) But isn't he cute??
I'm kinda sad that school is starting. It's the realization that I won't see him much anymore. He won't be home during lunch time and he won't be home when I get home from work. He's going to be a very busy man. He'll leave before seven and won't get home until after seven. He'll have football games Monday and Friday night and film review Saturday mornings. Then he'll probably still have school stuff to do. :( It's a sad realization that we are growing up. I like being the young married couple with out too many responsibilities.

Expectant Mother

Victory and I went shopping and decided to take a photo opp with the expectant mother sign with my cell phone. It's not the best picture but thus far the first picture I've been in since being pregnant. Maybe we'll do a few more here in the near future.

Hope you enjoy looking at the fat girl...uh... I mean pregnant girl! :)

MmmMMmm Goodness!!

On Sunday there was primary teacher appreciation and training. I've been substituting every other week for the last few months so the Primary President invited me to eat some of the goodies (and I didn't even have to stay for the training!!) For those of you who know Sister Stevens and her divine baking talent, know that she prepared AMAZING FOOD!! Well, she had these little brownie cup things with carmel or peanut butter in the middle. (how she gets it in there, I have no idea!) One just didn't seem to be enough to satisfy but I couldn't eat more than one...after all there were other people in the room who deserved to eat at least one. So we left.

I was still dreaming of brownies so the next day I went to the store to buy ingredients to make my own brownie goodness. I loved them! Maybe because I'm pregnant they tasted 10x better but mmmhhmmm good.

I made a pan of fudge brownies. After the were done baking, I pressed Rolos into them on one half of the pan and peanut butter cups on the other half of the pan. I put them in the oven for a minute to help them melt. I lightly spread the melted chocolate across the brownies. SOO GOOD! Especially after their cool. They definitely didn't have the visual presentation that her brownie cups had but they were GOOD! mmmm. The pan of brownies are gone now and I'm left to only dream of them again in the near future. :)

It's no longer an It!

So we went to the doctor's office today to find out what "flavor" of baby (as my dad would say) we were having. Victory insisted that I share our news right away...so for the news we've been anxiously awaiting....

The baby looks kinda likea zombie in the picture above but the next one is pretty neat.

Now if you can't tell what this bottom picture is of, just imagine the baby is sitting on a xerox machine...she gave us a great view!
We are excited to finally know what flavor our baby is going to be...it just time for us to decide on a name!

Boy or Girl???

Victory and I find out the gender of our baby next Thursday. I've posted a poll on the left side of the screen. We'll let you know next week whether you were inspired or just a lousy guesser. :)




Until then...